A Letter to Covid (Poem)
Taking the trash out soon.
Jokes aside, I started this year with a lot of goals, plans, and visions.
From January 1st the universe kinda had other plans in store for me. Literally starting January 1st things started going in a different direction than I had planned. I wrote this poem in the midst of my worst mental health days to calm my mind. I never intended on sharing it but as the year comes to an end and so many are sharing their highlights, I thought it would be nice to shine some light on my lowest days. I think getting through those toughest days of the year should be celebrated as much as the good ones.✨
Hope you enjoy.
Dear covid,
It’s become harder to breath these days.
Not because you are apart of me but because you’ve been consuming me. You’ve made it harder to feel whole even when everything feels fine. I know, I know, it’s all a part of life, it’s just I’m tired of feeling like I don’t have a place to survive. Nowhere is safe these days. Indoors, outdoors, inside my mind.
Some days it’s hard to get myself out of bed with a whole lot of lies. Like everything is going to be alright. Which it hasn’t been for awhile. It’s hard to live a life full of whys. It doesn’t make sense why you had to come by.
I am no longer okay with saying I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m not fine. I’m tired. You made me doubt 25 years of life. Realizing that I’ve been living a life full of lies. I don’t want to waste anymore time trying to meet your deadlines. You want to take me and my loved ones, that’s fine. Just take the anxiety out of my mind. Cause it’s time for me to admit I’m losing this fight.
I’m joking, not a chance you can win this fight. I didn’t get here to just stand by and let you take what’s mine. I have the whole world on my side. Friends, family and loved ones who push me everyday to get by. You might think you are better than us, but you don’t know how strong and resilient we are. What I’m trying to say here is thank you for stopping by but it’s time for you to say goodbye. You are no longer welcomed in my life. Indoors, outdoors, or inside my mind.
