An Introduction
Hi, nice to meet you! ♥️
Let me start my first ever blog by thanking you for being here. It means a lot. If you have checked out my about me section, I have given you the rundown on Golden Feels. You should know, though, Golden Feels has been in the making for almost all my life.
Let me explain. I was born in Tehran, Iran and moved to Vancouver, Canada, at age 5. That’s when everything started. Immigration is hard. Therefore, those early years brought on lots of confusion, isolation, and internal conflicts for my parents, which meant lots and lots of fights between my parents. Constant change in schools. Constant travelling back and forth between the two countries. This resulted in growing up, not knowing where I fit in. Every time I felt like Canada was home; my parents would drag us to Iran so that we don’t forget our cultural values. And every time I thought Iran was home, we’d be dragged right back. I’m not saying this so you’d feel sorry for me, cause honestly, those were some of the best years of my life. What this brought on with it was an identity crisis. I never really felt like I belonged in any of the two countries. So growing up, I dealt with lots and lots of anxiety.
After high school, I decided to take my life into my own hands and focus on my mental health. Little did I know, life had other things in store for me. University was a nightmare. In the first couple of years, I ended up hating my field of study (Engineering) and cried myself to sleep almost every other night. Let me put it this way; the second semester, I was not doing so great in one of my courses because I was having difficulty understanding the course material. The professor for that course, let’s call him Steve. Steve came up to me one day in the lab after I asked for his help and said to me in front of everyone else “You should drop out, if you can barely pass my course then you’ll never succeed in all the other ones, and you’ll definitely get kicked out eventually.” That’s the day I realized there are a lot of shitty people in the world, and I’m not going to let them win. Even though my mental health was deteriorating, I was pushing myself harder than ever. So over time, I became very passionate about the field and managed to get that engineering degree. So thank you, Steve!
Going through these tough life experiences, one recurring pattern that kept helping me get through them was the help of others. Whether that was my mother, a YouTube video or the Starbucks barista who put an extra smiley face on my cup, those little to large gestures and words of encouragement were what helped me get through life stronger and feeling more equipped. Now, through years of practice, I’ve managed to find ways to be more in tune with my body and mind. Embrace life’s imperfections and just be content, grateful, and more than anything HAPPY. I still have a lot of areas that need improving and many many self-imposed boundaries that I set up for myself daily. So that’s where the birth of Golden Feels comes back in. The best way to push through my fears and struggles in life, and talk about the past ones and how I overcame them is to write them out so that maybe I can help that one person out there know that you’re not alone and if I can push through, you definitely can too! That’s why I’m taking you on this journey of empowerment, inspiration, and self-discovery. Let’s stick together, fight back, and live a wholesome life by pushing boundaries and overcoming all our “self-struggles.” Let’s feel golden together! ♥️